Snip Snip Depression

It's me who's having the depression, not them. I dont think they know that they're gonna go through an operation. And to think of this, I feel so sad. I know I can back out anytime, so I make myself don't think of it.

Niki whined from 6am to 9am.

They are on fasting since 12midnight, no food no drink. And I woke up at 7am to let my mum see them before operation. Mum keep telling me "its okay one.. a lot of dogs also went through.." (I can see from her eyes that she's trying to console me, as well as trying to make herself feel better.)

Baby say, Niki and Winky must be thinking "WHY JIEJIE TODAY NV FEED US!! SHE FORGET IS IT!!" lol .....

I showered them. And both of them smell so nice!

Heheh.. I really like him looking at me this way, so naughty boy look!!

Okay, before snip snip:

Winky has only one testicle. Meaning another one is hidden inside which can be dangerous because of body heat, it may cause his testicle to produce cancerous cells. I dont know how, but high chance.

So, off we go, together with baby, Niki Winky, and myself. :)
Need to report between 12-12.30nn.

I didn't have chance to take a photo of them at the Vet. It was crowded and the nurse just carried them away.......... I was so depress at that point of time, but I keep telling myself that it's for their own good. I felt so empty at that point of time that I feel so lucky because Baby is just beside me. If not for him, I might just break down... =(

We took a cab back to CWP.
And just that when we alighted, The Joyous Vet called. I panicked for awhile and quickly pick up their call. The vet called to check if Winter was the one whom need to undergo Heartworm test. I said yes. And they check with me if Winter need heartguard. Since Niki is taking Interceptor and Winky shown interest in his Interceptor, I told the nurse to dispense Interceptor instead. :)

Baby and I had HK cafe for lunch. It was a good lunch because I finally felt a little relieved. They are already with the vet, there's no turning back, all I can do is to wait till 8pm to fetch them. Went home, and I started packing stuff and throwing things to wash.. Their toys, blanket, cushion .... And I finally packed their clothes!

I bought 60 hangers plus those I originally have (abt 20) AND I ALMOST FINISH THEM ALL!! See how much clothes they've got!! There were some not worn even once! One of them still got the tag intact! LOL ... my mum laught at me for that! I'm the one who's vain, not them! LOL~~

(The Vet called again, informing me that Winky's heartworm result was negative, so he can start on Interceptor) - shows that they will keep me posted for any result. And therefore the whole day I was praying no more calls from them.

So... time passes so slowly. I took a nap, and woke up, and waited for time to pass. Brother came back, mum came back.. and the very first thing they asked abt was their operation, how it went and what's the status. I told them, I didn't receive any call .....which is good news. :)

Finally 7.30pm came. We took a cab down to CCK to fetch them. This time I've asked Jonathan along because Im afraid Baby and I couldn't handle. We gotta carry them, make payment, call for cab etc.. So Jonathan was kind enough to tag along with us. Lucky us.

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We reached, and the first thing I asked the nurse was, "Are they ok?" The nurse say yes, then I continued asking "Did they whine a lot or bark?" The nurse smiled and say, "They whine and bark once u left this afternoon."

Poor boys, my heart shattered. :( I was so scared and so excited, So worried and so glad. I have this very complex feeling at that point of time, the only thing I wanted was to quickly go home.

Niki came out first.. because I asked abt the lump on his butt. The nurse carried him out with the cone on, I was so happy .. He wagged his tail and whined a bit. This operation must have been tough on both of them. :(

I was flustered (and coward) that I didn't take any photos at the Vet. And I didn't dare to carry them. I quickly ask Jonathan to hold him. And all I remember was wanting to quickly bring them out of that place. I think it's like a horror place to them.

And Winky came out next. Jonathan was carry Niki and Baby carry winky while I made payments and the nurse came out to show us Winky's testicle. They mentioned that Winky's testicle that was hidden, is found in his abdominal (which is not normal). And it's size is only half the normal testicle.

So.. this operation is beneficial to Winky in fact. Well, this is the only reason I can tell myself to make myself more at ease. I feel so guilty you know!! :'(

But anyway, I felt relieved when I see them wagging their tails.

Back at home.. we place them nicely on their clean beds and they were so tired. Niki whined and .... makes me so heartache to see them in this state. Did I make the wrong decision? I shouldn't have sent them to this horrible operation! I feel so wrong and feel so guilty upon seeing them in this state.

Many say, they will heal and start jumping around usually the very next day. I told baby, how can they jump and feel alright when they are in this state now? Winky hardly move and he just slept at his bed through the night, while Niki keeps whining and I hardly sleep.

Both of them were so tired..

*heartache*

And look at their operation area:

Alrights its just a small slit but.... IT LOOK SO PAINFUL CAN!! :(

And Winky's worst! He got blueblack all over the crotch area because the vet couldn't find his balls. Sighs...... Poor boys. How to not heart break??

They fall asleep fast.

Doctors advice: No food until following day 6am - afraid they might be drowsy and choke on food. No water (only small sips allowed). No activities at least for 4 days, no licking of wound, no shower. Wounds may heal in roughly 2 weeks. Keep wound dry, if bleeds or pus is seen after 4 days, bring them back to the vet.

All of us suddenly feel that Winky slim down a bit. All these must have been so stressful for them. :(