Singapore Wind Symphony Presents ......

Nakamura Gakuen Girls High School Wind Orchestra !!
(yes its a girls .. high school)

7.30PM @ SOTA - 29 Dec 2011

The SWS Youth Winds played 2 songs, and the Nakamura Girls took over. IT .. WAS ... A ..... BLAST! Seriously. And frankly speaking, other than the Tokyo Kosei Wind Orchestra's concert I went years ago, this is the second one printed so deeply in me. Some how or rather, such motivational concerts brings my passion stronger. They make me feel like running my band into a better and stronger phrase.

Well, lets see if anyone were to join me in that!

One of Niki's fan.
Jun Hao.

MY SAXmate no.1, SL + Bestie !!!
SHAN!! *hearts*
And my SAXmate no.2!
JOHAN! =D
AND LASTLY...........

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We've all grown up, didn't we?

B.A.N.D.

OH I FOUND THIS ON YUI'S ALBUM!!

So long ago right? :)
But, I still *hearts* this band.
And so, we went back last night for their Band Camp.

YES WEEEE !!!

And the old ones ......

The people I love most. :)
I so wanna make the Alumni Band reunion come true!
So gonna!

I didn't stay till too late, we left at roughly 4am.
ShiMei and Lina is there so I am relieved.
The girls are mature enough to handle.

Ms Yati was the one whom requested for the 'senior female alumni' to stay. And frankly speaking, I always wish that she's still taking charge of the Band. I miss her.. and all other teachers. I miss my band days, I miss my fresh graduated days as Alumni.

I really can't understand why all those politics even came by in the first place. I always thought Band, especially Alumni, are the most matured ones, bonded by music and we should be like a family. Apparently, it breaks my heart to find that I wasn't part of them.

Dislike the feeling of being left out.
So I must persist.

I will still be around, cause afterall my passion still burns.
(But I am plain lazy.)

We shall see.

"I've not thought about how good you are or how angelic are you. To me, its not about realising what you actually are, but whats you. Committing into a relationship to me is a form of acceptance and compromising."

Confusion

Confused. Contradicting.
I need some Confidence right now.
I need Assurance.

Dislike the feeling of being insecure.
WHY .

I seriously mind how people look upon Me.
Yes. I. Do. And because he is known to everyone in the Band (like Joey) I ended up getting myself into pretty awkward situations. Sighs... I understand how the teachers want me to be happy, or at least find some one (they trust) that is reliable. I know they do dote on me and that is why~~ they keep doing the match make.

But I am really feeling so awkward, serious.
Sometimes when I don't know how I should react, i'll turn blind, deaf and mute. And people will start taking me as being snobbish.

Oh well. I am so stressed up with work lately. Till now, 3rd month into this role, some part of me still couldn't get use to that juggling part of load. I tend to topple over easily, getting fucking stressed up and couldn't finish my task, leading OTs and working from home. And they left me so dried up and tired.

Lets hope for a better tomorrow! And, 2 days to year 2012 !

Year 2011.

I'm so so happy recently cuz I get to meet so many of my long-time-no-see friends!! Shan is one of them, YUI is next! And of cuz, Jol and Shir and SzePeh etc ... Well well, I only want to be happy for the rest of my life. So, the one and only thing I'm pressing myself to accomplish, is to stay happy no matter what lies in within!

2011 is coming to an end, I guess I shall do a round up on myself.

This is a fantastic year, except for the breaking up thing which is rather clingy. I got Niki, I got Winter, and so many newly made friends............ and also, got back my freedom. I don't know how I survived over the 3 years, but I believe some part of me really love him. But, loving is one thing, whether or not you're willing to compromise and sacrifies, is another.

So, I decided not to anymore ... It's too taxing for me. But anyway, I got Winter after that, so all my attention went into Winter and Niki. I love them both, really.

Niki came into my life on the 12th January. It's almost a year. And i'm gonna celebrate this special day with him. :)

I met up with some old friends..... TIAN TIAN FINALLY!!

And in this Year 2011, Ronny Registered his Marriage. We have a happier family, and my sis-in law is awesome. She's a teacher in Maris Stella.

Later in the months, Jolyne came talking to me again. Probably she've matured a little, knowing how to treasure something better now. We got really close, but still not as close as we use to...

But nevermind, she's still my buddy! Love her loads.

And Shan, I sort of... got closer to her to certain extend. In times, she'll just call me in the middle of the night, sobbing and needing someone to listen to her. I am glad that she thought of me sometimes. And slowly, I became so open to her that I allowed her into my secrets. Maybe I really like her, and I trust her. :) She's an awesome friend.

And because of Shan, I finally got back together with them.
Johan and Jonathan. Really love them.

And following; because of Niki, I got to know alot more people. Sze Peh is one of them, and I'm really close to her. We share almost everything, and she is sincere. I like her frankness and she never fake a smile. I like her.

And because of Sze Peh, I got to know Yappy.
He is a cheerful guy with loads of emotion.
Cute little chap.


05 September 2011
Winter came into my life. And I met more people... I became Single..
Luck start streaming in. I am counting myself lucky cuz the people I meet, are all kind hearted. They took me seriously and pays with sincerity. I like kind people (so that I can bully them)
hahahahaha ... no la.
I get to know alot of friends through niki and winter.
Serious. Together with my freedom.

And then my 24th birthday which no one remembers.

Except for my colleagues that celebrated my 24th birthday for me silently.
Yes ........ I have a cake this year :) And a card written by them.
I am so happppppy.

Then I ran the D&D event, met some more new people in the Company.
Edmund was our Emcee, so I met him.

He gave me alot more insights...
Was so amazed by his experiences. Young and amazing.
Talented. Really. He got a very good vocal.

And that series of event, I went back running band stuff, and just recently, I met Vincent.

He is Mr Toh's friend.
We got slightly closer due to common topics, and he kinda drew my passion back.

Lastly, something for myself;
I had my hair permed FINALLY!

I use to be forbidded on this hairstyle which I liked so much.
Now my little dream came true. :)

So, this is my happy family now.

My Christmas Series 2011

Manage to meet up Tian on Friday.
We caught up, had a good dinner at Jack's, and headed down to Ginza.
I really hope she will be happier.
Not so much of a symphatising, but from the bottom of my heart.
Later on she went off meeting her friend, I went for Movie.

[WE BOUGHT A ZOO]
"all you need is that 20 seconds of courage"
It talks about life and how the dad handles his two kids with different age gap. He was trying very hard to resolve his son's issues and on the other hand, has to deal with a growing up child, emotionally. What I really liked about the show is about how a family compromises with each other, trying hard to learn about each other and accepting them. I like ! :)

Christmas Eve was good.
Had dinner with him:

My new found friend ;D
But but but... I don't wanna become reliant.

I strongly believe that it was those common topics that brought us along. Talking to him makes me see things which I (sad to say) neglected. Probably because he is mature. And I had so much to laugh at with him. He is a good singer. Very good. He is like a 2nd GQ to me.

Christmas Day:
Pawty at Jess's place was good. LG came to pick us up.
Niki love Bobby Tong so much that he didn't wanna leave. And he keep whining.

Cute.

I should spend more time with Niki and Winter.
Can't get enough of them.

They were the ones always standing by me.
Love them always.
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THEN
I had the NICEST Popcorn from CityLink @ CityHall!!

I really liked the caramel !!
Sinful. GOSH.

And out of the many first times, this is a special one!
Writing on a ball that will be thrown into the river...

OKAY - frankly speaking, I dont believe in making wishes.
But its kinda fun. LOL ...

The only thing I wish is for everyone around me to be happy and healthy.
The rest, they gotta make it happen themselves. :)
Likewise for me.

Headed down to Orchard after that.

Walked a little, and settled in at Absolute Thai for dinner.
I really must say that the Tom Yum was GOOOOOOOOD. And the pineapple rice and the Pandan Chicken. Shall bring Jolyne there next time ;D

So, ended up at Ginza till late.
The last sinful thing I did; Supper.

26th December: Day out with Shan.
IKEA MEATBALLS!!

BEANIE! <3

And we went down to Far East Plaza for her white dress after that.
We had our haircut too. She looks PRETTY AND COOL !! <3

I think i'll just fall in love with her soon.
LOLx.

And.. Dinner was with Sze Peh at Ajisen (CWP)
We finally meeeeeet ! hah. >.<

My Christmas is Special this year.

F.A.M.I.L.Y

Father And Mother I Love You

My family came back from their Genting holiday on Tuesday night. I didn't get to speak to them until last night when I got home. Seriously, I love my home.

Mum cooked Chicken soup, and nothing beats home cooked food. I had my favourite piece of chicken breast, and was really filling. So dad was telling me that my work will not be a good one next year, and advises me not to change job cuz after next year, my life will be better.

So I think i'll just heed my dad's advice and hang on there! :)

Worthy.

How do we measure how worthy a job is for you to stayput? Interest? Paycheck? Or you just get to slack around in office doing nothing - like how you like?

The amount of load and burden I carried during office hour is tearing me apart. (I am writing this now during my lunch break FYI.) So, I was talking about the stress I have today which totally made me feel like packing up and go home right away.

Putting all those aside, the good thing I liked about my job...
.....is my boss.

She 'invited' me into her office (I thought I did something seriously wrong!), asked me to take a sit, and asked about my load. She is always so kind to be there and assist. And I guess, if I were to leave this place, the person I'll miss most is her.

Well ....... I shall do some serious consideration first.

Once and for all ...

Its too late.

I am responsible for what I say, but I'm not responsible for what you don't understand. So, I'll make things clear for you and me, once and for all.

KKH Christmas Performance

I've got too much thoughts to be penned down, but due to time constrain, I shall let the pictures do the talkings. :)

Sometimes I really miss my band days.
Probably I should start picking myself up again.