One Year; Niki Lim

Left: 12.01.2011
Right: 12.01.2012

Look at how much my baby grew!

He use to be only one-tiled and now he is one and a half.

He is My pretty boy.


I hope for many more years to come with him and Winter. <3

Niki & Winter

Some repeated photos here:
I'm so glad that Niki and Winter kinda liked him as much.

Niki has been rather naughty recently.
I'll tell you why..

Last night after our long walk, we came back home and I wanted to put on diapers for both Niki and Winter. I called out to Winter, and he walked over like usual, giving me his butt and I'll put the diapers on for him.

And Niki ......... when I called out to his name, he look at me with that... "huh .... again...." look, stood up, AND WALKED TOWARDS BABY!! O.M.G ....... My mum and baby laughted at me !! HUMPH !! ........ and I tried calling out to him a few more times, he just act blur, looked at me, and moved his butt to sit closer to baby! grr...... he was seeking help from baby cuz he didn't wanna put on his diapers. =.=

Both of them are just so cute!! <3

Baby came along with our walks ever since we're together. He never failed once to reject my request when I told him I feel like walking the dogs today. He'll say, 'lets go!' and get so excited when he sees them both.

So they had a good walk, ran around and stuff.
Niki slept so soundly last night. :)

I'm glad that both of them are healthy and loving. <3

12.01.2012
My aim is to walk them at least 3-4 times a week to distress.
So I hope that baby will walk them with me ;D

First Ice Cream Trip

Gelare @ Causeway Point
11.01.2012

(Vanilla Bean & Raspberry Sorbet)

He really doted on me more than I expected.
And sometimes, it feels so strong that it makes me so little.

But anyway, he keep reminding me to be natural and don't release these negative vibes cuz it'll affect both of us, emotionally. All I can say that he is mature enough to handle me, and sensetive enough to handle my heart. I am so blessed. I gotta treasure whenever he has for me. :)

So I was on specs, and he said he didn't mind.
But I do. It affected so much of my confident level.
I ended up telling myself, 'ITS OKAY, when we go out then I'll dress up nicely for him!'

But he has his point.
If by wearing specs will make my eyes healtier, be it.
He'd rather look at those health benefits.
Mature right? LIKED!

This picture is kinda unglam, but I dont care.
He is looking too cute here.

I'm glad that he loves Niki and Winter as much as I do. He'll never reject the idea of walking them when I asked for, and he'll accompany me to do so. I enjoy walking the dog, and enjoy walking with him. I enjoy the way he accompany me to do things which I love doing.

There are too many things in my head which is tough to spell out. Lets make time do the talkings and we shall enjoy whatever we have for the moment. :)

We Are One Month Old

We are One Month Old today.

Dian Xiao Er @ Causeway Point
We had a little feast, to give a little pat on our shoulders and to thank each other. And he knew that i'm stressed out with work, and he knew that bringing me for dinner will cheer me up. Initially he wanted to bring me for Ice Cream, but the que was super long, and our dinner was so filling. ;)

(and I paid the meal because he footed the bill the day before - yes its our rule.)
Oh ya, we went dining with my parents at Soup Restaurant yesterday, and he footed the bill.

YES AND I COLLECTED MY NEW SPECS!
ok, I FAILED in specs.
neh mind... its for work use.
He look so decent la.
Mr Lee.
LOLOLOLOLOLOLOL.
(he didn't like me calling him that)

And initially we wanted to walk the dogs, but it rained.


So we just stayed at home and played with them.

And I opened to him regarding my 'emo-period' during work yesterday. I also told him frankly how I felt when he couldn't reply me and stuff, that I started thinking too much and, those were u healthy to us. But instead, he hugged me tightly and say that he is very glad cuz the moment I receives his text, all these thoughts in me just disappears. And that shows the certain position he has in my heart.

He is mature enough for me to rely on. And I like the way he handles me, giving me choices and leaving me with sufficient freedom. :)

I truly wish for more to come. <3

Drained.

Today is a bad day for me.

I got so emotional ever since I stepped into work and that makes me feel so demoralized. Worst thing comes after that - I started being paranoid and keep comparing myself with his exs. My morale dropped and nothing was left.

The seemingly short meeting made me feel so used up, and my work list grew so much longer. I know my appraisal is coming, and I'm definitely trying my best to keep up, however that kind of mental stress made me upside down.

I am lacking of sleep.

4:20pm; baby's text came. I was brighten up immediately. How amazingly...

Hard Front.

I can't understand why I like to put up a hard front and then get emotionally affected behind the scenes. I seriously detest such act and can't believe that I am going through all these again.

When can I get over with it and settle my heart down?
Why do all these emotion roller coaster have to burden me like that?
Why am I forcing myself to get those doubts in him again and again?
Why can't I just trust the words he say flatly into my face?

And now I realise... I still have that trust issue.
I don't wanna break my heart once more, please.
Some one save me.

I should really feel blessed that he's willing to accept my past. I should be generous enough to accepth his too. But why am I feeling this awful now?

Feeling Clingy..

I've been feeling so needy recently.
Just feel like clinging onto him literally 24/7.

And i'm starting to hate myself for being so dependent.
Why ... ? I really dislike myself for being like that.

Also something I dislike about relationship, that kind of misses and love lingering inside my heart, and the emotional needs and stuff, its kinda suffocating. Although its not a bad thing, but it's makes my heart races without a reason.

How ... ?
And worst, baby's at reservist now, and he is unable to text me this whole week. I am so not use to that now... And to be frank, I really hate the feeling of waiting and waiting for a reply. I keep getting so paranoid and keep checking on my phone to see if there's any surprise reply.

Sigh ...... I hope i'll get through this fast, and let our relationship settle down quickly so that I get some stable emotions.

"We Just Click"

Yes we Clicked!

I have never found some one with so much in common.
The food, the environment, the loves, the expectation, the mindset, the common interests and the kind of attitude and character.

Frankly speaking, having him is like a dream coming true. He has all the good traits, extracted from my ex-boyfriends and combined into him, One. Only difference (a good one too) is that he plays my favourite Trumpet, and is super caring towards me. And I am really happy that I finally found 'the one' that will compromise and think for my sake. Of course, I won't bully him.. I'll treasure him even more.

I am someone who needs a lot of attention.
AND HE GAVE ME ALL OF WHAT HE HAS!!
On top of that, all those praises he showered onto me, PRICELESS!
He can make me feel so glad and comfort.

I never imagine that I can feel so comfortable being around him in such a short timeframe from knowing him. So that concluded (and proves) that love has no boundaries.

Weekends with Love

We are sticklyli-stick-sticking to each other for the past one week.
I like . We went by bus, on Baby's compromisation.

Friday
We decided to head down to Sembawang Shopping Centre (Yes Kung Fu Paradise) to reminiscence about us. No, we didn't get to sit back to that very sit, but we sat side by side.

10.12.2011
06.01.2012

We even talked about what are the food he recommended!
But he wasn't aware that I didn't fancy noodles back then.
We laughted at each other pretty much.

It was really some laughter.
Funny max.

And both of us love long walks, love singing, love duets... And so we took a stroll after our late night supper. We walked till around 1am+ and went back home. We were trying to figure out what are the duets and harmonies that we could sing.

And I really like that!

Saturday:
We planned to head down to Tiong Bahru for his lesson while I walk around, and then to Ikea for Dinner and Queensway Shopping Centre to get his footwear.

I am really glad that he mange to find something he like.
;D

He really look kinda cute.
My boyboy. :)

So I went scouting that area and started shopping for stuff for baby. He is rather concerned over his skin's condition and since CNY is coming, I thought I could do something for him. But on the other hand, I'm really afraid that certain ingredients might give a negative reaction, so I was really careful on the list.

Sigh... I really hope I will do some help.
So, his lesson ended around 4pm, and we headed down to Ikea for an early dinner.

SEE MY DECENT LOOKING BABY!!

<3
I keep asking him if I could do a 'check-in' at Ikea.
His first reaction was that "err..." look. LOL

OKAY, i wasn't trying to be funny, just testing him out.
Likewise, I wouldn't cuz I dislike that kind of attention. We are very much alike in fact. And that's considered another plus point.

He wouldn't force me to do things I didn't like, and vice versa. :)

And we shopped around Ikea, looking at those showcases.
I realise that we have almost the same taste and comments for a lot of stuff.
Communicating with him is so much easier!

Queensway Shopping Centre was next.
He managed to get his footwear.
And I SO got the urge to get a pair of running shoes.
I look forward to running together with him! ^^


Headed down to Clarke Quay to meet his friends after that.

My decent boyboy. :)

<3

Lily's. The pub name.
I kinda miss Ginza while I was there.
I felt so lost and so so awkward.
And luckily his friends understand and took me as being shy.

Well, I hope I didn't throw his face that night. T.T
I'm so lousy. Tsk.







[[ EMOTIONS ]]

My confidence plunged from heaven to hell in split seconds that very night upon stepping into Lily's. I dont know why, and I wasn't in control. First time in my life I'm overwhelmed by such stressful force that it made me gone haywired. I couldn't think with a proper head.

I lost my coolness.

I was trying hard to break my limit. Was trying so hard that I forgotten about myself. That kind of stress I was going through that very moment could burst me anytime. But still, I hanged on trying to act as if I was okay. I didn't wanna put baby into an ugly spot. I don't want to appear as spoilt nor too kiddish. I want to make baby proud of me.

And so I hanged on.
But I think I failed badly.

But I am still glad afterall, that baby are sensetive towards my emotion. Or maybe I was too obvious to start with? (I don't know...) And so baby suggest we leave around 12plus, which I felt so relieved afterwards. I was so mindful about leaving a bad impression on his friends, especially infront of Hui Fen. She's so pretty, so capable and so much so that I felt so defeated emotionally when I see her.

I admit being jealous. And was a little upset after baby told me about the song "Yue Ding". I felt so cheated at that point of time. (okay, I was being too petty then) but I got over it within minutes cuz baby kept that physical contact with me, trying to pull my emotions back. It did help a little, but I was shy that I keep refusing. Again, I dont want to appear to his friends as being stickish and weak.

I really dont know what came into my head that very night. I just felt so dumb to think back now. I hope there'll be another chance for me to revive myself.

And lastly, I am really glad to have baby by my side. That love grew so much suddenly that I didn't remember for it to be so strong. I couldn't control myself now not to miss him badly. I felt so dumb and keep secretly hoping that his feelings for me were real and frank. Some times I really couldn't help by doubting him. I hope he will not get upset with me tho. But that is a frank sentence.

This time round, I'm so afraid of losing....


















And coming back;

We had supper after that. Bad for health. But I like.
HEHEHEHEHEHE ..... And we had a new inside joke:
"Vincent Lee is a Environmentally Unfriendly Person."
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Sunday - we parted awhile while he went for his lesson, and I head home to settle my baobei. Its been a long while since I paid much attention to Niki and Winter. And I promise myself that i'll bring them out for walks at least three times a week.

We had lunch and MOS!
SO LOVE!! =D

And we had Ajisen Ramen for Dinner.
And I finally caught MISSION IMPOSSIBLE (A Ghost Protocol)!!

AND... we had a new inside joke:
"I have a environmentally unfriendly GIFTEN boyfriend"

BABY LOVE!

We have no intentions to hide, neither we would wanna broadcast it like a crazy radio. Let nature take its course alright? :)

He is like a combination of all the good points from various of my ex boyfriends's character and attitude. That really shocked me much and left me feeling doubtious (is there a word like that?). I felt like i'm dreaming.

Till now, I don't see much flaws in him.
He's the Apple of my eye, (with a little worm inside).
hahaa.....

He always has his way to make me laught (like a mad woman).

We are spending everyday wisely, treasuring every moments with laughter. We sing to each other Like nobody's business and I really love to hear him singing. I don't wanna care what others might look upon us anymore cuz he told me not to. Well, I shall lead my blissful life as much as possible.

More baby's photo coming up =D

Things are going so well ever since he stepped into my life.
He named them as positive vibrations.
They attracted same energy into me.

He is so adorable.
(We're going Ikea for meatballs tomorrow!)

Life Plans

He have plans in life to get settled down before 33years old. Which is 3 years from now. And deep in my heart, there are some thing pulling me back which I don't know what! But I'm glad, in his plans, there are dogs. He is my perfect angel.

Probably all the compiled fears acted up when he mentioned the word marriage. And thinking about that, I started to withdraw the thoughts of even being together with him cause I dont wanna lose him.

I think, I'm falling in love with him hard..

Holidays

I'm going BKK in February with Sze Peh!
And ..... i'm gonna plan a holiday trip for baby also!

So excited. =)

02 January 2012

I was woken up at 7.30am by Niki and Winter. But I fell asleep fast and finally get off bed at 8.30am. Fed the two rascals and try going back to sleep.

Was woken by a phone call. Sze Peh needs to go off for two days and gotta leave Cotton with me. Yes, today and tomorrow. She says she'll be here in an hours' time. And she did. Cotton came over arond 11am.


Luckily my family all likes Cotton.
In fact, my mum was the one taking care of her. Felt a lil' bad tho..
My brothers are at home most of the time, so its not an issue actually.

Well well...
He has to work on a usual Sunday. Tutoring a student at Jalan Tenah

I went down with him, waiting for his lesson for an hour. I occupy myself with magazine, and time passes pretty fast. Headed down to City Hall for his lunch, and walked around to find his shoes. Too bad, he didn't fancy anything.

So we went home to play with Niki, Winter and Cotton.
Mum was home, and I fed them. So cute...... :)
After that we went for another session of movie !

The Darkest Hour 11.15pm at Causewayp Point
We walk and talked our time away.

Sunday: We were together again.
I played his trumpet! ho ho ho ho ho ... damn tough. T.T

Okay cutie.
We didn't do much on Sunday. Purely rest day for us. :)

Ending Of 2011

We met up on Friday for dinner.
He dropped by to visit Niki and Winter.

Had dinner together at the Chicken Rice Shop (CWP) and we parted around 9.30pm. I gotta OT at home for Year End Closing.... how sad. Was so stressed out and tired.

I was stucked at home clearing the invoices and stock for Monica to run her report and do her closing on Saturday as well. What a day!

So He came over my place and waited for me.
We had take away lunch brought by him, and he helped to entertain my two darlings while I worked! Nice? I like!

We wanted to watch a movie, but due to my work, we cancelled that.
Was finally ready to step out of house by 5pm, and we headed directly down to Vivo. Walked around and decided to catch a midnight movie after countdown.

Walked around further, and headed for dinner at:
"The King Louis Bar & Grill" #03-07A (Tel: 6276 0862)

The food is goooooooooooood ! *loves*

*SLURPS*
I really dont know what's this called, he made the call for dinner menu, but we have a variety of meats and vegs which I really liked! Of couse, I footed the bill cuz I owed it to him. Yes, we usually go on dutch cause I don't really see the need in him paying for my meals and such.

Im an independent girl!
YAY

So we had dinner from rough 7pm till 8plus, and we headed to the pet shop and Daiso. We had so much to talk and we couldnt stop laughing at each other's jokes. And frankly speaking, he has his mature side as well as the kiddish side which made me feel really attracted!

He is so easy going.

After dinner, we decided to walk the long bridge all the way into Sentosa.
We were too early for countdown, but nevermind.

Walked around the RWS side and he said he wanna bring me to Universal Studios someday.
He's pretty sweet right?

Sometimes I really wonder why some people can be so nice and yet, another can't. The love for me should be likewise equivalent? No? I dont know, really. But its okay for now.. I don't need to know it anyway. As long as i'm happy, I dont' wanna care else.

It's been a tiring last year and He said, feeling tired and wear out in a relationship is wrong! And I fully agree on this now. So I hope I'm not wrong about him now.

YAY. My first visit to this globe that every one is taking picture with!
Yea.. so we spent some time walking around Sentosa, walked for roughly 1.5hrs? And we headed back to Vivo for a drink and waited for the countdown

Year 2012.
He managed to pluck out that courage and pop that question.
Its not a question, its an answer. No, not an answer either.
He demand. No... I dont know what's that called, but it goes like this....

"I have something to tell you... (he held my hands)
From now onwards, everytime I see you I wanna hold your hands."
...... and he kissed on my forehead.

It's just some simple wordings but sad to say, some people just don't have that kind of courage. I find that there's something in him which I can't spell. Attractive and charming I should say! I melted although stunned on that split seconds. Never ever had this kind of feelings before.

Well anyway, I didn't reject him.
After so many encounters with him, I feel right with him.
Just click with him and I dont know why. But I felt shy.

So, movie was next:
Flying Swords of Dragon Gates @ 0015hrs.

He has that cute part which im starting to see in him.
So that was my Saturday.

We took the NR home (cab line was horrible) and stopped at Yishun for supper! Reach home around 4am.